I don’t know how long it’s been since I’ve tried something new,

I look at myself in the mirror and wonder how long it’s been since I’ve lost that twinkle in my eye;

I used to be fun, I used to be chirpy and now I’m just numb and stained.

I feel so alone at times and it feels like…

That there’s no one to just hold me while I break.

If I could, I  would grasp the chance to just escape from reality even if it’s for a split second.

Has my life become this meaningless?

Am I that desperate for a break from monotony?

Will I be passionate ever again?

And the worst part is, that I don’t know the answer to any of those questions.